It's Just Emotions, Taking Me Over...

For real, the past two weeks have been like an emotional roller coaster that I have been forced to ride.  There has been joy.  There has been a fair share of sadness.  There have been laughs.  There have been tears.  There has been excitement.   There has been let down.  There has been butterflies in stomachs.  There has been weariness.  There has been so many things but the best part is that through it all God has been faithful.  I really don't know why I am surprised to find Him so faithful to me, because when I look at the past I can clearly see SO many times in my life where God has proven Himself faithful time and time again and I know in my head that this time is no different.  Note, I said I know in my head because convincing my heart the same thing has taken a little bit more time. 

Basically the summary of the past weeks is that Mario went for his visa and they told him he didn't have enough information to prove that he wasn't going to stay in the United States.  They told him that when he had the paper, he could come back anytime and retry.  We weren't sure if that meant that he could go without an appointment and without paying the ridiculous application fee or not, but we wanted to try before we paid, so back he went.  That time they told him that he has to repay everything, but that he could use the same application that he used the first time.  They said that he should be able to get another appointment within 10 days.  Then when he called again for his second appointment, they told him that the absolute soonest day they could give him an appointment is May 2.  Yes, that is right, May 2- only 13 days before our planned wedding date.  There is really nothing we could do about it, so that is the date that Mario is scheduled to go back in.  We got a more detailed letter from YWAM and we also have letters of invitaion that they didn't even bother to look at the first time he went in, so we are hoping that it will be a done deal this time, but in the meantime we are praying.  Praying about what we should do if they don't give him the visa.  Praying about patience over the next month.  Praying about what we should do as far as our involvement in the DTS as they go on outreach.  Praying for WISDOM. 

There is a lot going on in our lives right now, and I sometimes get caught up and try to do it in my own strength.  Those are usually the days that end in tears and frustration.  With the help of others and God's gentle reminders, I realize sooner or later that I simply cannot do it.  That is the best place to be, when you realize you can't do it alone because then and only then do you fully 100% give it over to Someone who can handle it.  God is big.  Bigger than my frustrations.  Bigger than my problems.  Bigger than a visa for the United States.  Thank goodness that I am reminded of these things and thank goodness that the Holy Spirit ministers to me to help me remember why I need Him. 

P.S. Sorry that there are no pictures, our power is going crazy right now and the internet connection is horrible.